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I’ve Grown

Hello world,

I was reading some of my previous posts as I was deleting them, and I’ve grown so much. In the literal sense aswell of course (I’m now average height!!!) , but mainly in that I’m so different now. Reading them makes me cringe, but the Being Honest post made me cry. Honestly, I don’t know why. Maybe because I can relate now? I don’t know. 

Don’t you just hate rumours? People think it’s okay to talk about you when what they’re talking about – it’s none of their fucking business. 

Sorry, I just needed to let that out. Anyway, I’ve grown so much. I feel like I blog so differently now to then, and I don’t know if you guys notice it. I feel like I’m a completely different person, maybe it’s because I’ve stopped trying to impress you guys and I’ve started blogging for me, and not for followers. That was a dumb idea, young(er) Liv. I kinda want to start another blog, a different one but then again I don’t. I’m just a bit confused, overwhelmed right now if I’m honest – it’s all just a bit much really. 

I know I said I’d stick with blogging, and I will but I might be a bit distant – something came up today and I need time to figure this all out. I’m sorry. I’ll still blog frequently, or I’ll try, but yeah, I might be a bit distant. 

Anyway, sorry.

Lots of love,

Liv xxx

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Restarting.

Hello world,

I have decided to delete all my posts and start blogging fresh, with nothing that I’ve blogged about before. I will be keeping a few of my posts, ones that I do actually quite like, but I’m going to be deleting most of them. 

Sorry,

Lots of love,

Liv xxx

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Dear Future Me Tag (Response)

Hello world,

Yes, I know it’s late, I think I explained why in my last post. For anyone who hasn’t read my last one, this one will make absolutely no sense so it’s linked here. So, here’s my response:

Dear past me,

Well, it would be 24 February 2017 if I wasn’t such a shitty blogger. Last year, wow. I was so different! It’s not after 10pm, rules are still the same with the old parents, it’s 20:15! 

Indeed I am, and yes I am actually aware of this, so thank you. Yes, I do realise this, thank you SO MUCH for reminding me! Year 9s not BAD, per se, but it’s not exactly great. I miss year 8, to be honest. Too. Much. Fucking. Work. No, but hey! You bitch! No, I have a girlfriend, you innocent little thing.

No detentions, apart from that one where I went along to my friends and she gave me a detention because (and I quote) “why not?”. Warning sticker, maybe 5 or 6 this year, I can’t really remember. But come on, I got at least 13 in year 7. Am I more confident? Well. *takes deep breath* that depends on what you mean by confident. Am I outgoing? No. Hell no. Am I happier with what I look like? Mostly. I think so, anyways. I have good days and bad days, like most people. Yes, I have. Well, I don’t want to commit suicide anymore, which is great, but I haven’t necessarily stopped punishing myself. YES! ACTUALLY I HAVE! Unicorns are still great, obviously, but I’m not OBSESSED. 

Hobbies, umm, does Supernatural count as a hobby? Netflix? No but seriously, trampolining? Gymnastics? No, I quit piano in January, right after my grade 3. My enrichment courses are pretty good, other than music, in which I have to socialise. I’m still learning French and Spanish, and I taught myself a bit of German aswell. Also English (goddamn girl you’re fucking psychic). Thank you, and ITS NOT TIME YETT WHY DO YOU THINK ITS LIKE GOD KNOWS WHAT HOUR OF THE MORNING! Not that you’re going to reply to that, but anyway. And excuse me, teachers haven’t yelled at me that much! Byeee!

Lots of love,

Liv xxx


Well that was nostalgia-filled. I’m thinking of writing another one for me to answer this time next year. Hmm. 

Lots of love,

Liv xxx

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I’m Back For Good (I Hope)

Hello world,

So basically I’ve been banned from my phone and iPad for 2 weeks (this was a week and a half ago) so I haven’t been able to blog, this also meant I missed my Dear Future Me tag, so I was actually really upset about that.

Also I’m not meant to be doing this, so if I’m caught yeah basically I’m screwed.

 

A lot has happened since I was last on here. Good things: I’m dating someone. This happened on Valentine’s Day (you think it’s cliché, right, but to be honest our relationship is anything but cliché😂). I’m happy to be back blogging, it honestly makes me really happy doing this. I’m out of a kinda toxic friendship, which I’m so proud of myself for.

Bad things: Today, I was diagnosed with anxiety, and she (she being the lady I went to see) wants to give me a CAMHS referral. For anyone that doesn’t know, it would take way too long to explain so here is the link.

I’m probably going to be blogging about kinda different things, and I’m thinking about changing my name, as I started this over a year ago, and to be honest it kinda sounds babyish now. So, if you see a blog you don’t recognise in your feed, it’s probably me.

I’m sorry about blogmas, I know I said I’d do it, and I feel really bad, but I was, um, preoccupied, and I just didn’t have time, I’m really sorry.

So, how are you all? I will be doing the response to the Dear Future Me Tag in my next post, so don’t worry (but you probably weren’t anyway).

I hope you’re all doing well, and I hope I’ll keep blogging from now on!

Lots of love,

Liv xxx

(that’s my real name, I’m going to be signing off as that until I can come up with a better name for my blog – ideas are welcome!)